It's Almost Christmas!

This ornament belonged to my Granny Ruth and she gave it to me several years before she passed away. There's no telling how old it is, but I remember that she always had it on her window sill, on a piece of cotton wrapping that had glitter on it. The cotton covered the whole window sill and there were other ornaments and a few lighted pieces. I always loved so very much sitting on the couch, up on my knees, looking at all of them. I'm not sure about the guy on the left though. He's not one of the wisemen because they're all there. I don't know if it's Johnny Appleseed or the guy from the Cliff Hangers game from The Price Is Right. :) Anyway, I can't tell you how much this little thing means to me. It's not just an ornament, it's HER. You know?

Since I'm talking about my grandmother, I want to mention this: The night before last I had a dream and all I remember is that I was crying for HOURS over the fact that she's gone. It was as if everything I have been holding in was being released. In my dream it seemed like I was crying literally for hours, but you know, it was probably only a few minutes. Dreams are odd like that.

Everyone that knows me knows how emotional I am, but as far as her death goes, I think I held up really well. I cried for sure, but as soon as she took her last breath and I knew she was gone, I went into some sort of mode that had me taking care of family, helping with her funeral preparations and basically making sure that everything was done correctly. I guess that dream allowed me to open up and get some tears out of my system because, before the party yesterday, I cried for a good while. And it was a good cry and I needed it. :) I miss her so much right now. She loved Christmas as much as I do and it's going to be rough not having her here.

Speaking of Christmas, which I love in case you didn't know, I rediscovered an awesome site that I found last year and I just love it. I didn't think that I was EVER going to find it but you need to have a look by Clicking Here. It's out of Finland and one day I'm going to go there, if I can get up enough nerve to fly that far. :) What a beautiful place! For some reason I thought Finland was just up north of the U.S. (boy, was I wrong) but um, it's not. It would probably take forever to fly there. :(

When Brooke gets home next week we are going to go see The Nativity Story, which looks absolutely beautiful. I can't wait, it looks like it was so wonderfully done. I'm really looking forward to it.

I have been worthless today. Marshall had to work but I woke up just a little bit before Cain did and that was around 11. *gulp* I don't know what's wrong with me the past couple of days but yesterday while I was showering before the potluck dinner I almost fell asleep--IN the shower! Maybe my body just needs some extra sleep lately. And in my defense, as far as sleeping late today, we didn't go to bed until almost midnight. :) I wasn't much count today though. I've washed clothes and cooked supper, but otherwise I've piled up under my covers and watched movies and vegged out on the couch. What a life...