This is the first alligator we spotted at the Magnolia Plantation in South Carolina the other day. My honey loves alligators so he was excited about seeing it--and the several more that we saw. :)I am BEYOND frustrated at not being able to figure out how to host my blog back on my website. I'm having to use blogspot and I don't want to do that. What frustrates me the most is that I've hosted it there before but I can't remember how to do it now. I mean, why is that? It should be something that is so simple to do, but for the life of me, I can't do it. :(
Marshall and I went to Lowes and Home Depot and looked at furniture for the back porch. We heard they have everything like that on clearance, and they do. :) We got a REALLY nice set of four chairs (that rock) and a table with a built-in firepit. The regular price was $800. We got it for $300. The whole shebang. We were excited. I'll take a pic of it when we get it set up. We were in my truck so we weren't able to carry it home. Honey is going to pick it up tomorrow.
I've been working on my photos for the most part of the day. The kids worked for Kandi today so I didn't feel guilty about not spending time with them as I usually do when I want to work on photos. I know they will both be gone in 3 weeks (sigh) and I want to spend as much time with them as I can.
I'm struggling and trying to keep myself from going into what feels like a mild state of panic over them leaving. Yes, Brooke has been gone for three years but she's been home all summer so I'll be losing her all over again. And, of course now Cain will be gone too.
I'm trying to keep myself busy. I'm trying not to think about it, because when the thought of them both not being here starts seeping in, I really feel like I might get sick. I know it's silly, I know it's just nuts, but I can't help it. I can literally feel my chest getting tight and I get all fluttery. I honestly do not know what I'll do with myself when they aren't here. How do people get through it? I wish I knew... I've had a good day, but I've been fighting back tears all day.
Night.
3 comments:
Oh sunshine... I'm so sorry. After the dream I had about Z a few weeks ago, FINALLY I can relate to it more. Silly, huh?
I know how you will fill the void! With coconut!
Baby.
I say that to my stomach all the time, the way you call it baby. In your tone of voice.
It's gonna love Aunt Rachel.
Go ahead and cry. When we took Karri to school, I cried the return trip from the Memphis area and for a couple of days after that. I think it's good to get it out of your system. When Karri married, which really left the nest empty, I moped and cried for two weeks. I would go sit in her empty bedroom, propped against the wall, and cry... cry... cry. Finally, about two weeks later, I was sitting there one night, crying, and I stopped and looked around the room again and then I thought Hmmmmm. This would make a good study. I had been wanting one. So, I got up, wiped away the tears and started working on making the room a study. I guess I'm trying to say that you DO adjust, but not without tears. So just let 'em fly and get them out of your system. It's ok to cry...Jesus wept, you know.
you could come over and play with Samuel after the kids leave! He's a good baby. You just have to be sure you mix his formula just right ;)
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