Not So Good

This morning I got up and went to church with Cain. I'm glad that we went. Todd (the preacher) preached a terrific sermon and I'm so happy that I was there to hear it. Funny thing, it was on the "Almosts" in your life, and I felt the sermon was just for me, since I "almost" talked myself out of going this morning.

I haven't been to church in a long, long time. I don't know why. I love going, I love being part of a church family. I'm ashamed now that I didn't go the past few months with Cain. He was going for a while before he rededicated his life and something was always going on that I just didn't go with him. You can imagine how that is eating away at me now.

I told hubby when I got home that I sure would like to start going regularly again. We both think the world of Todd (he was one of Cain's first football coaches) and he is an excellent preacher. I think Marshall will want to go, too.

One other thing that I'm excited about is that the womens class is studying the book of Revelation. While I didn't go to Sunday school this morning, I did ask for one of their study guides and when we get back from taking the kids to their schools then I will start going to Sunday school. I've always been way too intimidated by Revelation. It's terrifying to me, and yet I want very much to understand it.

Today has been a good day. When Cain and I got home, we cooked out and enjoyed a nice meal before Chad (Brooke's boyfriend) left for home. The food was yummy. :)

After Chad left, Brooke and I watched a Looney Tunes DVD that she bought for me. Well, we tried to watch but I think we both dozed off. Marshall also took a nap because he wasn't feeling so well (I think he's exhausted).

While today was terrific, I've been having a rough go. I realize that by this time next week, both of my children will be gone. I know I've said it over and over, but it's killing me. I'm not handling this well at all. I need prayer. I need something to get me through this. I don't mean to sound like a drama queen, (and really don't care if I do) but my heart is breaking. It's bad enough to have Brooke leaving again after having her home all summer for the first time since she started college, but to have Cain gone, too....I just don't know how I'm going to handle that.

Pray for me...