Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Missing My Mom

I bought this snowman ornament at Cracker Barrel the other day. I think it's adorable, mainly because of its little hat. :)

You know I love Duffy, because I've said so, right? I read that people are comparing her to Dusty Springfield, and I couldn't place who Dusty Springfield is so I searched for her songs. Of course, when I heard "Son of a Preacher Man," a lightbulb went off in my head. :) My mother loved her.

Anyway, so I was searching for songs and I came across the saddest song I think I've ever heard. It's called "Yesterday, When I Was Young." Read the lyrics and then listen, if you'd like, both the lyrics and video are at the bottom of this post. The song makes me miss my mom...reminds me of what she must think of her life, and THAT, dear friends, breaks my heart. She lives with such regret, overwhelming regret, really, and well, I just feel sad for her.

Neither of my parents are staying in touch with me. I'm not sure why. It makes me not feel so good. :( My Dad was texting me or calling me just about every day and now I hear nothing from him. I've actually called him, texted him, emailed him, AND sent a postcard over the past two weeks and he hasn't responded to ANYTHING. My Mom hasn't called me in a long time either. Hmmph!

Tomorrow I'm going shopping. Yay! I can't wait. It's Christmas shopping, otherwise I'd hate that I had to go. Christmas shopping is different though, isn't it? Yes, yes it is...

Here's the song:

Yesterday, when I was young,
The taste of life was sweet, as rain upon my tongue,
I teased at life, as if it were a foolish game,
The way the evening breeze may tease a candle flame

The thousand dreams I dreamed, the splendid things I planned,
I always built, alas, on weak and shifting sand,
I lived by night and shunned the naked light of day,
And only now, I see how the years ran away

Yesterday, when I was young,
So many happy songs were waiting to be sung,
So many wild pleasures lay in store for me,
And so much pain, my dazzled eyes refused to see

I ran so fast that time, and youth at last ran out,
I never stopped to think what life was all about,
And every conversation I can now recall,
Concerned itself with me and nothing else at all

Yesterday the moon was blue,
And every crazy day brought something new to do,
I used my magic age as if it were a wand,
And never saw the worst and the emptiness beyond

The game of love I played with arrogance and pride,
And every flame I lit too quickly, quickly died,
The friends I made all seemed somehow to drift away,
And only I am left on stage to end the play

There are so many songs in me that won't be sung,
I feel the bitter taste of tears upon my tongue,
The time has come for me to pay,
For yesterday when I was young.

So sad, huh?!

1 comment:

Val Ewing said...

I know this song as a country western song by Roy Clark. The lyrics are thoughtful and very moving.

Yes, I miss my mom too. She hasn't spoken with me in 10 yrs and now I don't know where she even lives.

I know, it is tough gal...big hugs for you.