Friday, November 07, 2008

Not Really Sure

I'm not really sure what's going on with me, but lately I feel like I'm just not myself. I don't know if it's the upcoming birthday that is looming overhead (the big 4-0 in March), or if it's this strange feeling I've had for the past two or three weeks that something (don't know what) is about to go wrong.

I'm not sure where that feeling is coming from, but for these past few weeks, I just feel like something is not right. I don't know what it is, or WHY it is, but it's constantly in my thoughts. I'm sorry if that makes me sound like a nutball...I just can't figure out what's wrong.

I feel like I'm about to come apart at the seams, which is so strange because there's nothing going wrong in my life to be making me feel this way. And I don't mean that I'm about to have a breakdown or anything like that at all, I just... I can't concentrate on ANYTHING and that's driving me insane. I have emails to answer, voicemails to return, other daily tasks to perform, and it's like I can't focus for two freaking minutes to even do those minor things. I'm constantly fluttering about, moving from one task to another, without completing anything because I just simply can't concentrate.

I swear though, I'm not crazy. ;)

We're about to head to Kentucky to watch Cain play ball. Ashley and Marshall's parents are coming with us. I know he will be very excited to see them all.

It's raining right now. Seems like on the rare days that we get rain (and I do mean rare!) we always are headed somewhere. I sure would like to sit home and listen to it all day. :)

Later, gators!


Dawnia said...

Damnit woman! Stop feeling that way with the coconut about to arrive! I'm already antsy enough. I truly believe in those instincts. Grrr... If only we could use our powers for good.

On a lighter note... I know why you feel so out of sorts! It's because you are suffering from Dawnia withdrawal. That is it, I am certain.

You should fix that.

I'm home. All day. All week next week. Come, play with me. Run errands, we'll have lunch with Donna H. I miss her too.

jen said...

It's called depression sweetie. Hang in there. I miss you sumpin terrible....

Val Ewing said...

I've been there all summer and I felt like a useless person...I couldn't get organized because I had too much free time on my hands...

Listen to your friends, we all love you!
Get feeling 'in sorts' soon.