Monday, September 05, 2005

Brookie Left...Again

"Can We Take A Nap?"
Originally uploaded by Rachel Pennington.

Brooke headed back to school this morning at 9:30, and yet again I cried.

This time was worse than the last time. First, I feel like we really didn't get to spend a lot of time together. She mostly stayed on the phone with her college buddies, or out with her friends from home. I KNOW this is something I'm going to have to accept, but right now it's really hard. I have to force myself not to think about it, otherwise it kills me inside.

When she got back on Friday it was like she had just been gone on a vacation, but when she left again I realized that she really IS gone. It's not easy for me, but of course she's very happy--and THAT makes me happy. It could be different. She could be stuck at a school that she hates, but she's not. We are blessed.

She says she's not coming back home until November. I'm not even going to comment on that right now. }:o[

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Oh Rachel,

I remember that empty feeling only too well. It hasn't been that long ago that my girls left home. It does get more bearable with time and it's never the same when they come home. I have finally learned to accept that they want to spend time with their friends when they come home even though I want to monopolize them.