(edit: I was in a bad mood when I wrote this blog. I put a paragraph in that I removed because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I'm not upset with anyone, hope it didn't seem that way.)I love Pop Ice. :)
I'm tired of a few things in my life and want several changes to take place. I feel like I'm stagnating. I need to do some cleansing of the soul, body, and mind.
Some days, like today, and maybe for a while to come, I just want to be alone (sans my immediate and extended family members). I prefer being left alone actually. Does that make me a bad person?
I'm not depressed either. I'm happy. I'm content. There are things that could be better but I can't make those things happen so I'll sit and wait it out, I suppose. There's not much else I can do.
And no, nothing I'm talking about has ANYTHING to do with my hubby. :)
I'm moving into that "What are you going to do with the rest of your life" phase. It's interesting. It really is. My kids are grown. Holy cow, they are grown and can make choices on their own now (of course, they'll still get input from mom and dad as long as we are paying the bills, that's fo' sho). I'm free in a sense. What do I do with myself?
For a long time, for many years when the kids were toddlers and even a little older, I remember looking forward to this time in my life. "When they're out of the house I can start doing all those things that I put off while we raised them." Funny though, that list of things SURE has changed. LOL
I told my hubby the other day as we were traveling down a road that we traveled a lot when Brooke was a baby that I used to stare out the window and think to myself that it would be FOREVER until she was off to college. (I learned it doesn't take long for "forever" to get here). And then when Cain came along there were times that I would think, "Only so and so more years until they're on their own! Yay!" Who knew it would happens so fast, and as you all know, I'd go back a thousand times and do it all again if I could.
Of course, that's not going to happen and here I am. So, what do I do with me? What do Marshall and I do as a couple?
Can we join a new church?
Do we start dating each other again?
Can't we PLEASE start a healthier lifestyle now and stick with it?
Those are the EASY questions. What do we do now? Who knows, and that's what I'm trying to figure out. :)
I look forward to the ride, as long as he is right beside me.
5 comments:
I know what you can do! Start playing with Rowan (grin).
Seriously... you could take classes. Photography and all manner of things you want to try. Hell, you could TEACH classes. You love children and old people so you could teach classes to them. There are so many things you can do! I'm jealous, I wish I didn't have to work. This working for a living is no way to live.
I understand the alone time. The more and more you are alone the harder sometimes it gets to force yourself to be with people. I applaud you saying no but just know that I will not always accept no for an answer (insert evil laugh).
Did I mention that I got a porta potty?
AND I LOVE THAT PHOTO. I want some. Now.
Dear Rachel...
This is the time when you can focus on your role as a wife... Take time to woo your husband. Do sweet things for him, cook him supper more often, make things a little special around the house, do something that he really likes for no reason except to bless him. Being a servant to him to your family is one of the greatest things, because you are blessing them but you are blessed even more in return. Your kids are STILL going to need you, maybe not AS often, but still. Be there and ready to help them, to encourage them to pray for them.
Yes, find a church that you and Marshall both enjoy and start going, at least a Sunday morning service!
Spend time with GOD, praying, listening to worshipful music, Moody WMBW is a GREAT radio station to listen to... it is SO encouraging!!!! 88.9 I think is the station.
You are so wonderful and I hope to talk to you soon. I will be praying for you and if I can help you, just holla! :D
Love you!
Chas
"woo your husband" - I'm sorry, I think i just threw up a little bit in my mouth.
I have to kinda agree with Candi on that one... I think you are a wooer of your husband already. Perhaps he should do some wooing (grin).
I read your friend Chas's comments all the time and I think she is a sweetie mcsweeter pants but I disagree with the whole woman as servant thing. Woman is equal to her husband and her family. When the bible was written, women were treated as lower beings, not equal to man and they had no rights. They were often sold as slaves and pimped out. The times have changed girlfriend and while I agree that focusing on making your relationship even better, you guys are great together already. I see nothing lacking there. Be yourself, do what you want. Cook and clean and make you happy and him in the process, but please please please don't do it with the attitude she is suggesting. It is demeaning.
I love you sunshine! Is it Saturday yet?
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