Thursday, November 13, 2008

Unsettled

I bought me a present today while I Christmas shopped: this Peanuts (mini) day calendar. It was only $7.99 at Barnes & Noble. No one loves Charlie Brown more than I do. :)

I'll tell you about my day later. It was a great day. WAS...the only bright spot in my evening is that my hubby came home from his hunting trip a day early, and BOY am I happy about that. Last night I had to stay home by myself and I had nightmares of people breaking in and standing over my bed every single time I closed my eyes. I hate crap like that.

Today I couldn't stand it anymore and called my Daddy repeatedly until he FINALLY answered his phone. I'm sure it aggravated him that I called that many times in a row, but that's just too darn bad, isn't it? I mean, for crying out loud, LET ME KNOW YOU ARE ALIVE. He's sick and thinks he has strep, but that is no excuse for not staying in touch with me. There's still something going on that I can't put my finger on, but I'll get to the bottom of it. My Dad is the only stable parent that I have. I'd like him to stay that way.

My aunt called and said that my mother was taken to the hospital by ambulance. She had an allergic reaction to medication they gave her for pneumonia. I called up there, and the lady told me that Mom had just talked to her sister and that she'd have her call me, and guess what? She hasn't called.

I don't understand. I'm completely unsettled by the lack of communication between me and my parents (divorced for many years, for those of you not in the know). I just don't know what's going on. I can't figure it out.

My heart?

Broken.

I do not GET it. I'm a good person. I have been in a role reversal with my Mom since I was 10 years old: me--the adult, she--not so much. Marshall and I have bent over backwards trying to help her out. I feel like she only calls me when she wants something. How do you NOT stay in touch with your child? Someone explain that to me.

I'm going to snuggle with my hubby. His hugs always make me feel better.

Night.

2 comments:

Dawnia said...

Again, she is part of the reason YOU are such a good parent....

I didn't know you like Peanuts. That puts a whole new spin on things. You gotta tell a sista this stuff.

Dawnia said...

Again, she is part of the reason YOU are such a good parent....

I didn't know you like Peanuts. That puts a whole new spin on things. You gotta tell a sista this stuff.