Here's Brooke and Cain being silly this morning. They were playing on roots that crossed over a small ravine. I'm not sure why the goofballs wore pants; it was early but already almost too hot to stand.
Brooke left about 3 hours ago and I've been crying on and off ever since. I'm not kidding when I tell you that it seriously feels like my heart might break right to pieces. I don't know why in the world I can't get over the pain and sadness I feel when she leaves. I'm probably going to call my doctor tomorrow to see if they will call me in some anti-depressants. :(
I know that I'm no more special than any other mom, and I know that probably every mother goes through this Empty Nest Syndrome stuff, but I never in the world imagined how hard it would be for me. Yes, she's been gone for over a year now, but each time she comes home and then leaves again I can barely stand it. At least now, for the most part, I'm able to hold off crying until she leaves. This time I hardly made it. I started as soon as she pulled out of the driveway and just stood there sobbing in Marshall's arms. Heck, I'm crying as I type this. :( I really am going to call the dr. This can't be normal--which was the point I was getting to before I went off there...
Anyway, no one ever told me to get ready for this. No one ever said "Hey, you might want to start preparing yourself." You raise a child and are with that child every single day for over 18 years and then one day they are just gone. How are you supposed to just be ok with that? I need to know. :(
Good grief, I'm sorry this is so depressing, but the sadness is just dominating my every thought. I'm telling you right now, if you have a child at home with you, make sure that you enjoy every second. Even those days when you want to pull your hair out, enjoy it, relish it. It'll be over with before you know it. :(
1. Cruel: Don't Be (Cruel)
2. Jive: Shuck & (Jive)
3. Weak: Kneed
4. Understand: Got it?
5. Bum: Bummed out :(
6. Stairs: Up
7: Tone: Wish my body was...
8. Quickly: Move it!
9. Moment: Steal a...
10. Beating: people at Uno is one of my favorite things to do. (o=